Jewels of Trivialities
February 2011
exhaustion
of design. the minimalism trend wants us to wear large shopper bags. as simple as that.
Maison Martin Margiela
Jil Sander S/S 2011
H&M Fashion against aids collection
feeling blue
I’m having quite a miserable time right now. I’m not confident about my work at school, I feel that I don’t stay true to myself and that I can never accomplish what I wish to. I am also lacking behind the deadlines all the time, although I’ve been working like a maniac. However, I feel the urge to do something, to make, to produce something, anything, that lasts until after a deadline, until after school finishes… but I don’t have the time, energy or equipment and as usual I am unhappy with the way I look, uncomfortable in my skin, never knowing what to wear the morning…
I thought that this year would be the break-through, that everything I managed to survive (that is school & the people there) would be left behind, but here I am, and I cannot change. I feel weird around people, I don’t want to talk, because I say things I don’t mean and people make me say things I don’t want to share, I hear things, I don’t want to hear. People remember what I say, how I look, they recognize me, categorize me, judge me. I don’t want that.
I want to be beautiful, sociable, content. Creative. Admirable. I want to be home, where ever that is.
picture via Lina Di Moda at freshnet.se
angry, aggressive, annoyed, exhausted, tired, sick, bored, stuck, uninspired. that is how i feel lately. today I though I’d get crazy.
